When things are not getting your way, you love to make a fuss that things are JUST not going your way.
How much you tried, the result will not appear and you started to question yourself with a lot of why in your mind.
That results in you to turn a little crazy because you started talking to yourself and keep on blaming and hitting yourself when things are just not right.
This type of psychology burden is not abnormal at all. Because we cannot control our mind well enough to let it control us.
In the other word, this is call stress.
We started imagining things that did not happen at all and start assuming this and that.
Family members started having a fear of you because you are not in your usual you.
The stress keeps on getting you and you have no way out to take a breather. You feel like no one can understand your situation because they are not the one who are facing this problem.
In the other hand, it is true that no one is facing the same problem as you. Unless this house turns into mental health institute.
Sometimes it is good to sit down and close your eyes by NOT thinking any other things. It is good for your brain to feel the relaxation mode.
It is not even meditation you need to do because you will bound to fail it.
All you need is to sit on the couch, close your eyes and get your body rested comfortably.
If you happen to fall asleep, so be it. That is the real purpose! Sleep comfortable with no tension in mind. It is ideal if the place is very quiet. Best to recuperate your mind because there is too much tension that caused you having lots of tension and anxiety.
Work is stress, but do not let it control you because this is very unhealthy for the entire family.